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     Rants and thoughts, thoughts and rants. I always have them lingering in my mind lethargically and consciously. Here's a little story about me. I'm always stuck in reveries, it's like I live in my own dream land. Okay, maybe not too dreamy because sometimes I think of the worst. Anyway story cut short, I think (and daydream) a lot no matter where I am. It sucks when it happens at the wrong time and the wrong place. Once, someone thought I was scrutinizing a woman breastfeeding when the fact is, I was deeply lost in my thoughts. Yikes! And there were many other incidents but maybe it's best if I just keep them to myself, or else this post may never end. I have always had the idea of me writing but I was never good at it, or I was never brave enough to start. There were many excuses before but today, I finally gathered every ounce of confidence I had in me and here I am, sitting in front of my laptop when I have physics exercises to be completed. Meh.. They can always wait. (No they can't, actually. Totally screwed)

     Moving on, I'm just another mediocre 18 (soon to be 19) year-old science student from Malaysia and here are the most frequent questions that I ask myself almost everyday.

  • What the hell am I learning?
  • What alien language is this?
  • Did I make the right choice choosing science as my field?
  • Am I smart enough for this?
  • What in the merlin's beard? Blimey Harry.
     Ok no that last part was a lie, I was just talking about Harry Potter with my cousin. And yes, I'm a potterhead if that is not obvious enough haha I get so excited when it comes to Harry Potter. Anyway, sometimes I think maybe I should become a stylist or a personal shopper instead. Because that's my passion. People always tell us to chase our dreams and find a job that we're passionate about, right? And hell I'm deeply passionate about fashion (and shopping). If there was a rehab for shopaholics, darling trust me, I would be the first one to sign up. But then again, I've always been told that knowledge is crucial to survive. And I do believe in that statement. I know that there is no way that I would just give up studying. And plus, gaining knowledge is also a way to bring you closer to paradise as what muslims believe. But sometimes when my optimism just flows down the drain, I can't control myself with the interminable "what if's" and it deteriorates every single time. Admit it, we all have our moments right? Well I certainly hope I'm not alone in this. We just have to suck it up, get a grip and move on with life (or with studying).

"Allah leads to Paradise the one who travels far seeking knowledge. The angels spread their wings under his feet for him to tread on. All that is in the heaven and on earth, even the creatures in the sea, beg God for the forgiveness of the sins of the one who seeks (sacred) knowledge."
          [Tirmidhi & Abu Dawud]

     Till next time, xx.

P/s: Smart people are hella attractive. ;)



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